Upset I’d rather hide than try. I’m silent when it’s time to stand. Why do I impose a face of apathy when I’m scared? Maybe it’s time to stop covering what’s broken and start fixing. Maybe it’s not ‘maybe’ anymore. It’s time to value me more than security.
Stop estimating your future based on your present situation. Nobody falls to the top they always climb. We have heard many rags to riches stories. Why can’t that story be yours? Whenever we see someone great, and look at him or her thinking that they have some superior talent and they probably do, but the thing we forget is that they started out average. Just like you and me. It is their discipline; the action we take that separates great people from mediocrity. Heroes and cowards are no different except it is how they choose to face fear.
I am a hypocrite because I don’t take advantage of my moments too. I’m not as painfully honest, assertive, or as strong as I know others need me to be. Too often I come home wishing I had handled my new challenge with greater courage forgetting the cost.
I write this as my mantra. This is my new commitment to self. I will not cower to the fears overwhelming inside. I cannot be captain to my glorious future ahead if I do not weld my ship with vision undeterred. We live in America, for crying out loud! What blessings are ours? It is possible and so I try.
And so, I am
Vulnerable enough to claim my pain,
Confident enough to laugh at myself,
Strong enough to admit my mistakes,
Humble enough to dare the impossible,
Meek enough to relinquish resentment,
Simple enough to love one more time.
I am strong.
Hurt empowers me.
Failure fuels my fight.
Weakness births strengths.
Life’s hard, but I hit harder.
Written by Ryan Smith, LAMFT, Therapist, Center for Couples and Families – Holladay